An Empty Glass

If there’s one thing that I have taken away from my first Remote Year month in Mexico City it’s that I really don’t know as much as I thought I knew.

cdmxBeing from small-town Indiana my family and friends always told me how smart, and successful I was.  Funny thing is I blatantly took their feedback without a second guess and with it came a great amount of self-confidence and a feeling of self-worth. I truly think that it’s due to this that I’ve been able to be successful in my life. It’s amazing what this kind of support can do for your personal outlook.

Being surrounded by 79 other extremely intelligent and successful people perhaps for the first time in my life I realize that I know only a very small amount of what success means. I’m honored to be traveling with such a diverse and knowledgable group of people and hope that I can learn from them along the way.
A couple of days ago at our monthly Junction which is an event where we gather with all of our group as well as a group of local professionals we were privileged to hear one of our members Carol Schulte give a very inspiring speech on goal setting. We sat down together and were asked to visualize what we would be doing at the end of the year. Then we were asked to fill out a worksheet to help us to find what steps and goals we had for the year and how we were going to attain them. To be honest I just couldn’t do it.

I don’t know what it was but I could not bring myself to even see what the end of this year looks like for me.

Having spent the last 4 years totally focused and knowing exactly where I wanted to go and then suddenly feeling this total sense of loss and lack of Direction was quite daunting.

Do you know what you visualize for yourself when you’re sitting looking at yourself in the mirror on December 31st 2017?

                                     I don’t.

I’ve since chatted with Carol and she has given me some hope. Hope that I’ll find my direction. Hope to fill the emptiness. Hope to move forward. So now, I’m looking at my glass nearly empty and wondering what will fill it by the end of 2017. As I visualize this…I’m filled with excitement, fear, and wonder.

I still don’t know what I see when I look at the me on December 31, 2017 but I’m hopeful that it is going to be a happy, successful, and fulfilled me!